Month: December 2002

What’s going on with me

I was talking to a friend and realized, as I was explaining to him what LJ was, that I’d not written a ‘what’s going on with me lately’ post in a long while.

Likely because of the fact that I had a lot of my feelings and observations used against me, I felt uncomfortable sharing publicly, and so kept my notations private, for friends’ viewing only.

bluekitsune sent me a letter. One of those, “This is what’s happened in the past year” update letters. I love getting them from friends and family, and always had wanted to write one, but never thought of it in time.

So, I was thinking of it this week, as I was reading over what she’d sent. And, to be perfectly honest, nothing wonderful has happened to me this year. Oh, little things, if I thought long and hard enough, I could probably think of–but…this year has been really not great.

What made this year bearable were friends. And family, though they’re far away. And I don’t thank my friends enough for being supportive of me for God knows what reason.

So, right now…the Christmas Holidays. They’ve been difficult. I haven’t been able to do what I’d have normally done, were I working. I feel trapped in a body that is likely going to kill me if I continue on this road. And even with all of my friends about me, encouraging me, wanting to help me…I feel alone.

Now, I didn’t want to turn this into a ‘poor me’ post, so I’ll stop that right there. I’ll only add that I know I have good friends, and I know they care for me, and I know they’re in my corner.

My medical tests are in the second week of January. I’m nervous. I’m embarrassed by the shape I’m in (or lack of), and I expect failure, to be honest. I’m still looking at job boards and emailing my resume out, but I’ve noticed that I’m looking closer and closer to the bottom of the barrel, and will scrape it if I need to.

Bah. Ok. Sorry, was going ‘there’ again.

There’s nothing wholly interesting going on. I believe kalkail is coming down for New Years, and that will be wonderful.

Fin.

Cool Tools

I was just thinking:

I use a lot of cool tools on my computer, and shouldn’t we /all/? So, I thought to myself, I will just post links to the tools I use everyday, so that everyone can be as cool as me! All of theprograms listed below are free, though some programs offer more functionality if you register their software.

Seti Spy — FABULOUS program. takes SETI@Home and makes it visually interesting (moreso than it already is) and lots more informative. Even keeps track of the SETI@Home group’s progress that you’ve joined (if you’ve joined one).

Semagic — Wouldn’t be a cool tools listing if I didn’t list the tool that’s currently open right now as I’m typing this. Very user friendly. All the commands/gadgets are right there–no searching around for where you can make the post public or private. Very nifty.

Adaware — No computer today should be without this little helper. It scans the whole drive (and other drives if you request it) for ads imbedded into it by programs such as Kazaa. Very useful.

SimpleMU — If you MU*, this is the program for you. (Hey, I’m a poet, and I didn’t even know it.) I was a reluctant convert at first, Zmud was my program of choice, but SimpleMU just has the features that I want/need/like. Not to mention, the woman who designed/created it is just the most awesomest lady in the world.

Trillian — Trillian is quite the program. If you chat with friends via AIM, ICQ, Yahoo!, IRC or MSN, and hate having the five separate programs on your computer–this is the program for you. By using your already existing accounts, you can combine all of your Messaging programs into One. There are some probelms I’ve encountered, but really, the pros heavily outweight the cons. No stupid banner ads. No cluttering the drive. I love it.

Radio Netscape Plus — If you’re anything like me, you like a LOT of different kinds of music from a LOT of different kinds of genres. I grew up listening to musicals, classic rock, classical, pop, disco, and rock, and then developed along the way a taste for new wave, alternative, reggae, hip hop, techno, industrial, metal. You name it, I like it. And Radio Netscape Plus caters to my constantly changing desire for different music. I’ve found stuff, listening to this program, that I hadn’t heard in years. I’ve found stuff that I didn’t think I would like, but found out I did, listening to this program. No matter what sort of music you like, you will find your genre with this program.

Well, so far that’s it for me. I’m looking forward to my other friends to do the same on their LJ, so that we can all be cool together. :o)

Proof that Theo is Evil

**** THE PROOF THAT Theo IS EVIL ****

T H E O
20 8 5 15 – as numbers
2 8 5 6 – digits added
_/ _/ _/ _/
2 8 5 6 – digits added

Thus, “Theo” is 2856.

Subtract 544 from the number – this is the year Attila the Hun attacked western Europe, written backwards. It gives 2312.

Divide by 17, the symbol of domination – the result is 136.

Add 9391 to it – this is the year WW II started, written backwards – you will get 9527.

Add 3, the symbol of fulfillment – the result is 9530.

Turn the number backwards, and add 79 – the year Vesuvius erupted. The number is now 438.

This, written in octal, is 666, the number of the Beast.

It speaks for itself. QED.

http://lcamtuf.coredump.cx/evilfinder/ef.shtml

Ebba Forsberg

LOST COUNT

been walked out upon or been the one walking out on the ones I love
made my life a mess can’t put the blame on no one but myself
lost hope lost faith so many times I lost count
been stumbling groping caught but found a way out of each and every trap somehow so far
made my life a mess can’t put the blame on no one but myself
lost hope lost faith so many times I lost count
I lost count
lost hope lost faith so many times I lost count
been walked out upon or been the one walking out

Story Time

I’m not sure if I should thank haloedone for this or not…

FAIRY TALE

Once upon a time there has a young PEN SALESMAN named JOEY BAGGADONUTS. He was OVERLY CLUBBING in the CAREFUL forest when he met LOVELY HARVEY, a run-away METER MAID from the BESTEST Queen MAYA.

JOEY BAGGADONUTS could see that LOVELY HARVEY was hungry so he reached into his SHOE BOX and give him his LARGE HUMMUS. LOVELY HARVEY was thankful for JOEY BAGGADONUTS‘s HUMMUS, so he told JOEY BAGGADONUTS a very UNWIELDY story about Queen MAYA‘s daughter KAREN. How her mother, the BESTEST Queen MAYA, kept her locked away in a GARAGE protected by a gigantic KITTY CAT, because KAREN was so TERRIBLE.

JOEY BAGGADONUTS WROTE. He vowed to LOVELY HARVEY the METER MAID that he would save the TERRIBLE KAREN. He would WANT the KITTY CAT, and take KAREN far away from her eveil mother, the BESTEST Queen MAYA, and KICK her.

Then, all of the sudden, there was a PERFECT TORNADO and LOVELY HARVEY the METER MAID began to laugh. With a puff of smoke he turned into the gigantic KITTY CAT from his story. BESTEST Queen MAYA CROWED out from behind a SPATULA and struck JOEY BAGGADONUTS dead. In the far off GARAGE you could hear a BANG!.

THE END.

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